It has been a week since I had 2 of my 3rd molars extracted.  Since all of them (all 4 of them) are impacted, the dentist told me that they would be surgically removed.  She advised that I do one side first, both teeth up and down.  And so, the thing that I have been dreading and trying to avoid for almost 3 years finally caught up with me.  I finally gained enough courage to schedule that 1st surgery on my left. 

Amazingly, all the pain i was expecting, both during and after the procedure, weren't there.  Not much swelling happened, and the pain was way less than expected as I only drank 3 capsules of Ponstan for 1 day.  Thanks to 4 shots of anesthesia, all the pre-surgery medications and my dentist's expertise, I only have 2 more to go!

Now I ask, am I really wiser now that my so-called wisdom teeth are starting to show themselves? hehehe  

It's been months since I started looking for a new job, and the result... still stuck in my current job.  I've been through several interviews and exams... still no success.  Either I find out that the job opening isn't something that I want, or it is something that I want but they hire another person, and the company that you really want to get into, isn't calling you for an interview.  It is getting kinda frustrating...

Hmm... so let's review Top 3 questions asked during my interviews:

3. What is it that you do in your current job?
   - This question is usually easy to answer as I only have to describe my current job.  The problem with this is they usually consider the relevance of my job experience with the position I am applying to.  This is supposed to be an advantage, but there have been times when I felt that it became more of a disadvantage.

2. If you were to be hired for this position (usually a marketing position handling a certain product), how would you sell this product?
   - Uhhh... I hate this question! Why? It is difficult to think of a marketing plan for a product which you know little about.  Even if you review the company's background and its products beforehand, it's still different.  When this question comes up, my optimism usually disappears after the interview.

1. Tell me about yourself? 
   - Argghh! Another question I hate answering.  How can you describe yourself in just a few minutes.  Another thing, what kind of description are they looking for? Work habits? Personal i.e. attitudes, hobbies, family? Dreams? Beliefs? It can mean a lot! Honestly, I think this is a trick question.  Tsk tsk!

*sigh* I wonder when will I find a job that suits me... a position in an industry that suits my interests, something that is a perfect fit with my abilities and interests.

Recently, a lot of things seem to be going on or maybe it's all in my head.  I am feeling the weight of the "real world", as they say.  Every decision seem to count, every move seem to affect my future... the big question I ask: "What do I really want to be?!" (What career, my future plans, my gameplan...)

And with all these confusion going on inside my head, I realized that music helps to slow things down... for my thoughts and emotions to calm down...  It helps me sort my thoughts and simply enjoy the moment.  I find myself daydreaming while I'm listening to one.  And while I'm writing this entry, I am currently listening to:

Lifehouse - You and Me

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

   It's been quite a awhile since I last saw a movie musical that has a light enough storyline for me to enjoy every song... What could be lighter than a movie entitled High School Musical :) From the title you'll already get the idea that it is high school... My favorite type of movie... "pambata" hehe Their songs are the broadway type that when you hear them you can't help but sing along with it... "Just want to make you stand up and sing" is the usual phrase used to describe the feeling :) Glad that I bought the DVD... an original copy! :)

Start of Something New

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

Now who'd of ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

I never knew that it could happen
Till it happened to me
I didn't know it before
But now it's easy to see

It's a start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart

That it's the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Start of something new

Background Music: My Cherie Amour by Stevie Wonder

Blog Check: my last entry was May 14, 2006... meant to have an entry before I left for US but I accidentally clicked the shortcut "back" button on my mouse (darn it!) so my entry's gone... I didn't want to rewrite it since it would not come out the way it was supposed to be...

I just came back from US, LA to be specific... what can I say... the hours I spent on the flight was all worth it!  It was the first time in years where I went there with my closest cousins and their parents and my parents... funny picture huh? It seemed like we flashed back 10+ years... picture of two families with four noisy kids bugging each other and laughing.  After 10+ years, we were able to take a picture with everyone in it together haha :)

Anyways... more stories... We spent most of our time there with our moms and did the usual: Shopping and Viva Las Vegas! :) I guess both are self-explanatory hihihi It was a pretty tiring trip since we only had 2 weeks there: 1. we had to wake up early to make the most of each day; 2. Land trip to Las Vegas; 3. There were also several long trips to the airport (long story) and to shopping establishments :)

And now I'm back at work... and my sort of unhappy life at work resumes once again... I hate this feeling! I hate it! I hate it! (a separate entry will be done for this hehe)